➥ the world went up in flames ; and i looked away | fail!private

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I never thought I'd hear myself say something like 'I miss those days' because I never thought there'd be days to miss. Of course I miss the days with my father but... I've stopped trying to dwell on that as much. But I miss the days before the Games. Ridiculous as that sounds.

I look at myself sometimes and I don't recognize me anymore. Sometimes I feel like me. On those days that I can really forget the past six months.

But those days don't ever last. I can't ever really forget.

It's like I'm fighting a losing battle with myself every day. One step forward some days, twelve steps back the next.

Where am I even going anymore?

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Of course you're not, I know you're stronger than that.

Maybe I just want to see you.

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We can do that.