➥ the world went up in flames ; and i looked away | fail!private

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I never thought I'd hear myself say something like 'I miss those days' because I never thought there'd be days to miss. Of course I miss the days with my father but... I've stopped trying to dwell on that as much. But I miss the days before the Games. Ridiculous as that sounds.

I look at myself sometimes and I don't recognize me anymore. Sometimes I feel like me. On those days that I can really forget the past six months.

But those days don't ever last. I can't ever really forget.

It's like I'm fighting a losing battle with myself every day. One step forward some days, twelve steps back the next.

Where am I even going anymore?

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This isn't anything to worry about Prim.

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You always say that.

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It's always true.

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I'm always going to be here. And you're always going to be able to talk to me.

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You just don't need to know some things.

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You don't need to deal with some things by yourself.

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Go be a kid, Prim.

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Only if you come, too.

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It's a little late for me to be a kid.

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Maybe it's a little late for all of us.

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Not for you, though.

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[she just sighs]

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[She loves you, Prim. Really.]

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[SHE LOVES YOU FOREVER KATNISS ;__; DON'T DO THIS TO YOURSELF]

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[GOD WHAT IS THAT FACE PRIM?!]

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[THE FACE THAT GUILTS YOU FOREVER]

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[THAT FACE IS HORRIBLE]

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[at least it's not this]